I’m not going to go into a long drawn out story of how I got where I am…it’s just not interesting if I’m being honest. Just really a bunch of whining and I just don’t have time for that anymore.
not finding anything in my closet that fits
not finding anything cute in the stores that are cute (and on sale, but that’s another story)
wearing cardigans in the summer because I WILL NOT show my arms in a tank top (that’s for your benefit…your welcome)
seeing something cute in a catalog and thinking "maybe next year I could fit into that"
seeing something cute in a store window and thinking "I doubt they have my size"
feeling my underwear roll down when I sit because the fat roll is too big (nice visual, huh?)
standing in the heat and feeling the sweat collecting between my fat rolls
feeling like everyone is looking at me thinking "OH MY! I hope I NEVER get THAT fat!"
feeling like guys look at me and think "YIKES! RUN BEFORE SHE SEES YOU!" (of course, any guy that says "yikes" should know I’m not interested)
Ok, so that is just a few…I’m sure if I took enough time, I could think of some more, but you get the idea.
Does this make me shallow? Yeah, but I’m cool with that. I mean, it’s not like I won’t get actual benefits from loosing weight. You know, like lower cholesterol, lower blood pressure, less chance of heart disease, yada yada yada…
So, I guess I can say that my goal is to just not feel like I can't do something or have something just because of my lack of self confidence or my weight.
Ok, so that's it. Have a great day!
Kristy